On Thursday, December 19th, I’ll be having a PET scan to check the effectiveness of my first two cycles of chemotherapy.  As I noted in the previous post, the lymph node that had been palpable is no longer swollen.  However, prior to the Dec. 5th infusion, my oncologist and I did discuss some new swelling on my forehead.  He believes it may be new Lymphoma growth that occurred between cycle 1 and 2 of chemo.  The scan on the 19th will be important for gauging the progress that’s been made – including the unseen tumor in my frontal sinus – and how to proceed from that point.

Please pray for very clear, good results.

All of this has been a tremendous battle emotionally.  The best moments, I forget about it.  The worst moments are when I walk down the road of “what ifs”.  In September, prior to my diagnosis (but when concern was in full-force) a friend recommended two journaling exercises for me.  First, I listed all of my big struggles that I could recall and how God provided and got me through them.   It is so easy to forget all of those times. . .  One thing I clearly realized is that even the times I was lacking in faithfulness to God, He was forever faithful.  My lack of faith did nothing to diminish His faithfulness – thank God!  The next exercise was for me to write my current fears and, “I will trust you, Jesus.”

Soon after doing this journaling, Jonathan and I were driving in the beautiful Teton mountains and we heard the song below on the radio.  We both felt like God was reminding us of all the times He has been there for us, and that we can trust Him in this as well.